Wednesday, 8 August 2012

THANKFUL....

Me,I Grew Up In The Family Where They Have Only 2 RULES...And The Rules Were :

 1) We Love To See You Screwed Up So That We Can Boooo You,If You Excell, We Love To Wait Untill You Screwed,After That We'll Booooooo You....

2) There's No 2nd Rule....

I Myself,Never Get Support From My Family....Yes,I'm Kind Of An Excell Student During My School Years( Straight A's For UPSR/PMR and 9A's Out Of 11 For SPM, Ex School Boarding Student) Which MAYBE Will Impress Others BUT (There's A BIG BUT Here) My Family Will Never Support Me For What I'm Doing NOW....They Love To Watch Me Screwed..!!! All Of Them(My Family) Are Engineers,Nerds,Teacher, And ETC (Senang Citer Makan Gaji Punya Orang Laaaa!) Me On The Other Hand, Involve In Business, Creative Industry Business...Plus,My Fiancee Is A Producer...We Are Doing It Together A Lot In Order To Make The Biz Successful...I Act,Learn To Write My Own Screenplay,Doing Dubb and Translating Scripts,Learn On How To Direct/Producing ETCs...But NONE of Those Get Any Support From My Family....NONE....They Love Talking Behind My Back And They Love To See Me Screwed As They Always Did....~


You Know,All Of Those Never Gets Me Down,But I'm Proud Of Myself That Even They Hardly Want To See Me Screw...I'm Getting Higher And Higher...I Saw The World,I Learned Across Many Cultures,I Flew Across Oceans,Played Many Characters, Made Many Friends,I See Beyond Of Everything That My Family Never See, I Think Wider And Also I Fell In Love....So What If I'm Screw Someday( Which I Will Not Let It Happen) Who Cares...

My Family Doesnt Know Any Of These Coz All Of Them Were Nerds Who Read Books All The Way, Or Punch In Every Morning And Punch Out At The End Of The Day For The Paychecks That Just Enough To Pay Their Debts...Every Month Quarell And Yelling At Each Others..Bz Boooing Others...

While I Think Differently....I Took Another Way Round... (Will Not Mention It)

Kalau Lah Bill Gates Tu Tak Kuat,Dengar Org Duk Ngutuk And Ngata Dia Sana Sini, Kalau Lah Mark Zuckerberg Tu Terasa Bila Org kata Dia Gila And Kalau Lah Wrights Brothers Berhenti Bermimpi Untuk Terbang Seperti Burung, Kalau Lah Thomas Alba Edison Putus Asa Setelah Gagal Beratus-Ratus Kali Untuk Menghidupkan Lampu.....All Of Them Will Never Got To Change The History,They Will Never Get Rich,None Of Us Will Never Get To Fly Or We Still Live In The Dark Untill Now Without Lights...

So Who Cares Mom,Dad,Siblings,Atok Nenek,Sedara-Mara Segala....I'll Remember That Someone Told Me..."Ble Kita Susah,Takde Sape Nak Amik Peduli,Ble Kta Senang,Sume Nak Ngaku Sedara,Ngaku Kawan Baik..Then Mulalah Nak Pinjam-Pinjam Duit.."...Heh, Thats Usually How Lifes Work...

There's A Story You Tell And There's A Story You Dont..But I Always Got A Great Stories...The Family May See That Everything That I'm Doing Is Wrong...But You Know,For Me..It Doesnt Matter,Because When I Look Back Behind My Past I Know Exactly What and Where I Was Heading And What Was Heading Towards Me...I Might Have A "Not So Good-Supporting Family" And All Of This Crappy Stuffs That Came From My Family...But I Thank God For Replace It With Such A Very Nice,Humble, Romantic, Bijak,Baik,Loving Fiancee Who Non Stop Loving And Support Me All The Way....I Just Cant Wait To Have Him As My Husband....




Sunday, 5 August 2012

TIRED..~

Now I'm Sitting In Front Of My Notebook With, I Dont Know Maybe Full Of Regrets And Frustrations.....
I'm Not Sure For How It Goes,But I'm Losing Words To Describe What Happend..

I'm Tired For Being The All Good Girl/Lady Etc With Hope That Somebody Will Just Appreciate It...
But Thats Not How Life's Work...
You Do Good To People, People Will Just Hates You So Much...
You Give Dougnut To The Poor,They Will Throw You Some Stones Right Away...

I'm Just So Upset For The Bad Words That Had Been Thrown To Me By People Who I Justtt....


I Just Dont Know For What To Do...Unsure and Unsecured.......

Thanks For That....

I Guess,Maybe Its Just To Test My Patient Level In The Month Of Ramadhan.....If It Is, Then I'm Proud Of Myself For Not Throwing Any Bad Words Back To That People....