Nothing Good About This Post...

Nothing Good About This Post...This Is A Story About How Bad They Are....Sampai Hari Ini Saya Menanggung Malu Akibat Perbuatan Mereka......Tidak Berniat Untuk Memburukkan Dan Harap Menjadi Pengajaran Kepada Yang Lain..So Here It Goes......

Past few weeks, the grandpa called and ask me about marriage stuffs for the 1st time....I did answer in a well mannered way and to my acknowledge they understand my explaination...so ok lah kaaannn...

Next few days after that the grandma called me and ask me AGAIN the SAME QUESTION...i did answer it in a well mannered way AGAIN....so, fine laahh kaann...

Then next few days after the 2nd call the grandma called me AGAIN the SAME QUESTION...i did AGAIN answer in a well mannered way....

Then while i'm working, AGAIN they called me and ask the SAME QUESTION....i did AGAIN answer in a very well mannered way....

But THE VERY NEXT DAY...THE VERY NEXT DAY AFTER THEY CALLED ME, while Me and My Fiancee BUSY with our work, They Called My fiancee and ask the same question....and My Fiancee did answer in a very well mannered way...siap bagitawu lagi....."tgh sibuk sikit".....

And the moment they called the fiancee, my blood go upstairs....ape diorang ni tak faham bahasa ke...??? tak malu ke...?? tak faham orang lain pun ade family nak kena jemput, ade byk benda nak prepare... ade banyak keje/benda nak setel....

Then i immediately send msg to le father...stop calling2 banyak kali and ask the same question, we're adults so dont be pushy, we know how to handle it and stuffs like that....

Then my brother told me, le atuk, le nenek and le father tgh sibuk mengumpat and mencaci-maki us......

Honestly, to parents out there yang ade anak perempuan yang nak berkahwin, ade ke korang call2 si pihak lelaki and push2 mcm perigi cari timba...??? Mcm tak tawu malu dengan family belah lelaki...????

Tak perlu push2 kooottt....nanti yang belah lelakinya pandai laa dia buat keje dia....dia bukan hingusan lagi... alahaaaiiii....as perempuan, malu laa dengan perangai le family mcm nih....malu sangat...what they have in their mind...???

I met the fiancee's family....they are soooo very nice, baik, peramah....totally different from le family yang suka halau anak, bergaduh adik-beradik, mengelabah, kasar and panas baran.....aaaiiihh....

When i told my frens every detail about this, SEMUA orang tak faham dengan perangai le family and apesal diorang buat mcm tu....aduhaaaiiii.....

p/s : i come from a broken family...me and my siblings, we dont get enough support, care and attention from our parents...le parents love to fight over small stuffs....they are complicated, they love to complicate simple things and they choose fight over peace....i'm tired with them and i hope when i get the chance to have my own family later, i definitely dont want to be like them....

pun begitu, sgt bersyukur sebab ade ramai kawan2 yang sgt baik+supportive, other half yg sgt mature, a great job/bisnes....setakat broken family,eeemm..anggap laaa ni ujian kecik jek...heh~

NILAI WANG HANTARAN PENGANTIN PEREMPUAN

Salam.....

Sebenarnye tengah banyak benda nak kena buat, but spare some time kejaaaap sementara masih lagi ingat pasal ape yang nak dituliskan ni.....

Okay now, everybody ( everybody ke...?? ) mcm agak aware yang i'll get married...semua orang tanya bila..bila...bila...???? Tak tawu nak bagi jawapan camne sebab as what we planned, nikah nye kat tempat lain, tp reception nye kat KL....So basicly, members are invited to come yang reception nye laaaa kan sebab mudah, senang, dekat and etc.....But still, will be a bit secretive on the date sebab selagi kad tak di edarkan, selagi tu laaa takkan bagitawu date nye.....okay, enough about me....

Let's give focus to the topic....HANTARAN.....

ak tak tawu laa hantaran ni adat ke, sunnah ke ape....setahu ak, mas kahwin yang wajib...tapi, umat yang beragama islam kat Malaysia ni sangat memandang hantaran sebagai salah satu nilai perkahwinan....maksud ak, kalo tinggi nilai hantaran, makna nye,lagi prestige laaa perkahwinan tu di mata sedara-mara yang lain...maka lagi jeles lah sedara-mara yang lain....katanye lah kan....

Maka demand sungguh mak bapa di Malaysia yang mempunyai anak perempuan....Lebih2 lagi yang ade anak perempuan sulung tunggal....kalo boleh tu nak berpuluh-puluh ribu...macam nak jual anak...patut laaa orang2 sekarang ni ramai yang kawen lambat,silap2 tak kawen....

I Just wondering laaa kan...to parents yang berperangai mcm ni, bila time tunang tu, demand nak berpuluh-puluh ribu....alasan nye.......

1) Anak saya seorang jek perempuan, sulung/bongsu pulak tu ( So, anak perempuan jd mangsa bargain la? )

2) Anak saya belajar sampai degree, master, phd bagai ( Berlambak2 orang2 yang grad,so ape special sgt?)

3) Anak saya belajar sampai oversea ( so..??)

4) Kalo hantaran rendah nanti malu kat sedara mara (so niat nak menunjuk2 dgn sedara mara laaa kiranye?)

and etcs....etcs....ade tu demand sampai nak cicin/gelang emas/kain berpasang2 untuk mak/kakak/adik.sedara-mara/makcik2 si perempuan.....

One question i would love to ask to parents yang ada mentality mcm ni......

do you really care about your daughter before pihak lelaki dtg nak nikah dgn anak perempuan korang...?? keluar dengan sape? tinggal dekat mana? makan ape? cukup duit,makan pakai minum...?? cukup ke didikan yang korang bagi..?? belajar macam mana..?? agamanye celah mana...?? and ets....

Ada jugak parents cam ni ye...sebelum tu, bukan main tak ngaku anak bagai, siap halau2 anak keluar rumah, ntah ape ade anak yang jd bosia, merempit sana sini bagai, silap2 ade yang melacur sebab nak cari duit belanja sebab mak bapak tak amik kesah....(trust me, ade ye mak bapak yang tak amik kesah pasal anak-anak mereka....)

tapi bila time nak demand hantaran, barulah mengaku ni laa anak perempuan sorang, kena buat majlis besar-besar, hantaran nak tinggi nak tunjuk kat sedara mara and etc...eh,tak malu ke dengan pihak belah lelaki...???

Sorry aaarr ter emosional sebab dah dengar few cases from few friends....but ya, that's the reality.....

P/S : i know i'm a bit kasar, gila2, kadang2 gila2 and sewel2 sket so sy sangat bersyukur ade seorang lelaki yang nak amik saya jd wife dan dia sangat baik, penyayang, lemah-lembut dari segi tingkah laku dan tutur kata nye, sopan, matang dan berfikiran jauh+terbuka and lots of good values which i believe enough to guide me to be a better woman,muslim and wife.......no wonder it's called as my other half, other half of me yang missing...

saya tak perlu duit hantaran tinggi2 nak tunjuk2 kat sedara mara, lebih baik saya bangga menunjuk2 hubby saya yang sangat baik and penyayang itu....haha! (weyh, menunjuk2 bangga kan tak baik yana..!! aaiisshh)

P/S (again...??) : girls...a bit of advice....silalah cari lelaki yang lebih tua at least 5 years dari anda....takyah nak cari muda2 ni haaaa....yang muda2 ni playboy jek banyak......haha! (ak taw ramai member2 laki ak akan maki2 ak sebab ayat ini..haha) *lariiiiii...*

WHAT TO DO AND WHERE TO GO AFTER SPM...???

Dear Adik-adik yang akan akan memulakan peperiksaan SPM dis Monday.....

11 tahun korang sekolah...hari-hari korang diisi dengan aktiviti sekolah, aktiviti luar sekolah...setiap hari parents korang bagi duit belanja...nak beli pape sume report jek kat parents..nak makan pape, parents belikan dan masakan untuk korang...nak pegi holiday parents korang bawak gi jenjalan...tak payah bayar sewa, bil, tambang and etc....

Namun, sedar lah wahai adik-adik sekalian....after 11 tahun di spoon fed...life after SPM will not gonna be the same....tak kiralah korang ni siapa masa sekolah dulu, selepas SPM di luar sana, takde sape nak peduli kan korang...pandai2 lah korang bawak diri, jaga diri and tentukan kehidupan sendiri...sumenya ditanggung sendiri...kalo tak pandai gunakan peluang yang ada, korang akan lost...kalo korang lambat bersaing, korang akan ketinggalan...

It's a real world now you are dealing with...ramai orang nak mempergunakan, mengambil kesempatan and etc....maka bersedialah menghadapinya...it's like selama 11 tahun korang di train untuk survive menggunakan senjata ( pistol, tombak, senapang, pisau and etc ) and after dis ialah masa korang untuk di "campak" ke dalam hutan belantara yang penuh dengan harimau, biawak, buaya, dinasor, singa yang menanti, menyorok, menunggu peluang untuk serang korang....

mesti korang nervous kan dengar ak ckp camni...??? well, you should...bukan nak takut2 kan korang, but that's the reality...by now, u must have target, goal on what u wanna do in life...what u actually want and where are your life heading to...

Let me tell u a real story....

There was a friend of a friend of mine....time sekolah dlu, result spm dia paling teruk di antara semua... tatkala anak2 lain gembira dengan keputusan cemerlang mereka...dia duduk sendirian bersedih....

Arakian satu hari di mana anak2 lain melanjutkan pelajaran masing2 di dalam dan luar negara bagi mendapatkan segulung ijazah....dia telah membuka workshop kecil-kecilan....dia mengambil kelas kemahiran dan membesarkan peniagaannya....workshopnya yang dahulu sebuah pondok buruk telah menjadi banggunan batu....dalam masa tak sampai dua tahun dia telah menjadi jutawan....

Tatkala kawan-kawannya yang lain yang mendapat keputusan cemerlang dalam spm tu tengah duk ternganga jawab exam, blaja amik notes sana sini kat universiti dan masih mencari2 identiti diri....umur sebaya ktorang tapi dia nih dh jadi jutawan dah uoollzz....kereta mewah beratur...gila jeles...!!!!


So tak payah laa ak nak cter panjang lebar sangat...i hope with dis story, it'll inspire adik2 yang bakal menghadapi SPM....bukan ak nak suh korang failkan spm korang okay...!!!! so Good luck adik2, relax and tenang jek...after all, SPM it just a piece of paper with bunch of question yang mana it'll doesnt effect your future at all sama ada korang cemerlang ataupun fail....=)

Btw, saje nak cter sket pasal result exam sendiri....UPSR 5A, PMR 8A, SPM 9A....hampa sebab SPM tak dapat straight A... benci taw....=(

What I, You And We Want...???

I Keep This Within Myself For A Very Very Looonnngg Time.... Tp Since Terbaca A Brother Of My Friend  ( An Activist, A PKR Supporter)  Kena Detained Sbb Menghina Sultan...I Think I Should Pour It Out Here....

I Have To Make It Clear That This Post Is Not Written Under Any Political Demand/Claim or Pressure... It's Just An Opinion On My Observation About Human Behaviour....

Here It Goes....

Grown Up In A Family Yang Makan Gaji..Yang Mengutamakan Pelajaran Itu Adalah Penentu masa Depan, So I Was Very Ignorance About Any Stuffs Related To Politics..Kalo Org Lain Duk Lepak2 Kat Meja Makan Ckp Pasal Politic, Parti Itu Ini...Well My Family Member Borak Pasal Benda2 Yang Boring... Which Is Performance in Study...Time Ak Sekolah, Org Ckp Pasal Hak Melayu, Tongkat Whatever..Bla..Bla...Ak Buat Bodoh Jek...Ye La, Because Back Then...All Of "These Stuffs" Doesnt Effect My Life At All...

Until I Grow Up, Masuk Universiti....Barulah Mula Diperkenalkan Sket2 Pasal Politics...Tu Pun Sebab Berkawan Dengan Member2 Yang Obses Dgn Politics...I Did Join Amnesty International Malaysia... Gone To Their Few Workshops On How To Be Fasilitator...Volunteering For Pelarian (Mengajar Anak2 Pelarian Ni English,Dance and etc), Meet Up Kanak2 Terbiar And Homeless Around KL, Meet Up Orang Asli...I'm Having Fun, Volunteering Helping People In Need...Menyebabkan kita sedar, betapa ramai orang susah kat Malaysia ni yang perlu diberi bantuan dan perhatian untuk hidup sebagai seorang manusia yang bebas merdeka di muka bumi...

So, from there...mula lah kenal dgn few members...duk lepak sembang pasal politics.....some aktivis ni good...contoh, aktivis alam sekitar, aktivis hak asasi manusia and etcs....but i did realize something in common dengan org2 yang terlalu obses and taksub dengan politics....not all, but some of them they are actually memiliki sikap2 and ciri2 memberontak....some of them mengutuk, memaki, mencaci....i'm sorry if i did offend some of  you...

Like Chill Are Bro.....Chill Laaa Kaannn....

Ade Tu Yang Jenis Tgk Berita, Terus Maki2, Make Some Stupid Statement And Assumptions...I Mean, Yes Korang Tak Setuju On Certain Things About Gov, But Hey...Instead Of Korang Maki2 Segala, Why Not U Channel It To A Right Person In A Right Way...???

I Hate Seing People Yang Duk CAKAP sahaja WITHOUT buat TINDAKAN apape...

I Ask this question to a friend long time ago...lebih kurang camni laa soalan dia....

   " Apa yang korang dapat ek dengan bersolidariti segala..?? duk tulis blog2, duk borak sesama sendiri and memaki2 about politics...duk konon nak tubuhkan gerakan underground etc...."

And The Answer I Got Is Like This.....

   "Saje, untuk timbulkan kesedaran and buat perubahan...."

hhahaha...Adoii aaaiii......adoi aaaiii.....kesedaran apelah sangat...dgn gaya2 hipster segala...if you really wanna change, want make changes....then make a plan, a proposals then bentangkan....bagitawu...usahakan ke arah changes ape yang korang nak buat....bukannye setakat duk kutuk2 maki2 sana sini segala sembang sesama korang dan tunggu perubahan datang....

cara Rasulullah memipin berbeza dengan Nabi dan Rasul Yang Lain....The best of all, cara dia mendidik org2 bukan islam yang menentang islam adalah dengan cara menujukkan ciri2 dan sikap peribadi yang lemah lembut, berhemah,mendidik dalam kebaikan....lihat mcm mana dengan cara Rasulullah ni,umat manusia yang jahil2 segala ni ramai2 memeluk islam....

I Dont Know Who Is Ahmad Abd Jalil Ni, But I Just Hope Dia Dalam Keadaan Selamat Dan Dilepaskan Segera...Memang betul lah, di sisi Allah, kita ni sume sama jek, takde beza....tapi di sisi Manusia plak, mcm2 pangkat dia...ade Raja, Dato', Menteri, Queen, Sultan, Yang Dipertua, Bos, CEO, Supervisor and etc.... So, in order to deal with orang2 kat dunia nih, kta kena tahu siapa kita dan kedudukan kita kat mana...apa kapasiti kita...memang laa rasa mcm kadang2 kita ditindas, tak adil and etc...but hey, that's life...tapi sape kata tak adil...Apart from all the pangkat, kedudukan, kasta and etc....ada yang paling tinggi antara semua tu...dia lah yang Maha Adil...Segala aturan ni Dia yang tetapkan...ada hikmah dan pengajaran yang kita tak tahu disebalik apa yang berlaku dalam setiap minit nafas kita ditarik dan dihembuskan kan...

I guess, that's all laa kot....kepada yang masih muda, cergas....make something yang worth in life... make history, do something that will make all of us, the family, the frens and the country proud of...

Rugi bro nak obses2 kosong jek...kalo betul nak politik2 bagai...toksah duk lepak mamak pastu complaint2,maki2, kutuk2 sana sini...pegi masuk politik sana tuh...think big, masuk parlimen, dun or adun ke ape...gi bertanding and make changes yang korang duk nak change sangat tu kan....

Maaf lah kalo post saya ni terlalu outspoken sangat....menyebabkan sesiapa tersinggung...but this is my thought....something i get from my observations back then masa baru2 masuk universiti...but i dont mean to offend sesiapa secara specificly....again, i apologize...

I would love to end this post with a status form Muhammad Firwan Norliza...i found it good and something for us to think and take benefits from it.....
 
     "Semalam TV1 rancangan National Geographic kot; gagak mendapat ilham untuk memecahkan kacang untuk dimakan dengan dilemparkan ke jalan. Kacang akan dipecahkan apabila kereta melanggar kacang tersebut. Tapi yang agak rumitnya, bagaimana untuk makan kacang tersebut yang sedang berada atas jalan raya yang padat dengan kenderaan?

Gagak tersebut akan meleparkan kacang di atas 'zebra crossing' dan akan datang makan ketika lampu merah. Bijak bukan?

~ Qabil juga belajar daripada seeokor gagak  "

p/s : sila abaikan mana2 typo.....~

Much Way Better....

Since lama dulu daahhh...berangan/berdoa nak dapat org yang...

1) bila tgk jek muka dia, nampak sejuk jek....
2) somebody older....

and yeaayy, Alhamdulillah made it..!! (sujud syukur)

I learn a lot fom this guy...very very a lot.....(tak perlu lah nak mention kaaannn.....)

Okay it might not be related now, but it'll related at the end...i pomise....

So, dulu-dulu....selalu tak faham tgk orang yang.....

bukan main rajin sembahyang, pakai tudung labuh/kopiah segala., kalo ckp pasal agama, dia lah no 1....

taaaapppiiii.....dia jugak lah yang.......

busuk ati, dengki, mulut jahat, mengumpat mengutuk orang sana sini and etc......

selalu jumpa orang mcm ni....kontra gilaa kan perbuatan dgn perangai....


But when i met Abg Erhan ( kan dah kata akan related...), I got the answer...not by what he's telling me, but what i saw within him....

It's all come from the heart....

Dalam badan kita ade seketul daging....kalo daging tu kotor, maka kotor lah keseluruhan badan kita, kalo daging tu bersih, maka bersih laa keseluruhan badan kita....dan daging yang dimaksudkan ialah HATI....

saya pun bukan lah baik sangat...but saya cuba belajar untuk mencontohi cara dia didik hati dia....( tak perlu lah nak cter mention how kan..)

Patut laa kalo tengok what ever kesusahan/ujian yang datang dia nampak sabar, cool and relax jek...

Patutlah whenever i'am around him, rasa tenang gila...

Patutlah mak cik kat kedai makan pernah tegur Abg Erhan...
" muka awak ni teduh molek laa"  ( dalam loghat ganu nye... )

Tak impress sgt tgk orang yang "menunjuk-nunjuk" buat "amal kebaikkan".......

Kalo tgk orang yang betul-betul baik and have clean heart, they never "menunjuk-nunjuk"...

when you truly found the one, it's not only all the lovey dovey words, the sacrifices, the acceptence of your kelemahan, the romantic, the couply stuffs and pictures here and there and whatever and all that...but it's much much more than that...way much of it...


P/S : to geng budak2 mulut jahat ( u know who u are ), i never regret tinggalkan paan...Allah give me someone better...much way better...

Senang Tak Senang Jugak Laaaa....

Kalo In My Family Line...Takde Sape Pun Yang Buat Bisnes Sendiri...Even Dari Kecik, Parents Tidak Mengalakkan Anak-anak Dia Buat Bisnes ( Mentality Org Melayu...Biasa Laahh...)...Malah diorang pandang rendah kat orang yang buat bisnes sendiri...

So, Happend To Know My Fiancee Yang Memang Blood Line Org Buat Bisnes....Dari Sekecik-kecik Bisnes Sampai Laa Sebesar-besar Bisnes...

Bila datang ke rumah org belah sana....ayat-ayat yang selalu akan didengari adelah....

"dia buat bisnes ape...??"

"tu laa org melayu tak pandai buat bisnes..."

and etc etc......

Kalo datang belah sini plak....ayat-ayat yang selalu didengari......

"Dia keje kat mana...??"  ( kalo keje biasa2 jek, confirm akan di pandang rendah oleh mereka-mereka....)

Dua dunia yang berbeza sangat....hahaha....!!

I prefer something that unusual...something thrill...and that something is business....

I dont talk much about the biz (perlu ke..??) ....but here what Abang Erhan told me......

"Nak run the business bukan senang...tapi kalo nak senang run a business...."

"NAK JADI MANAGER"

Masa kecik-kecik dulu, ble cikgu tanya...bila kawan-kawan tanya....

"Yana dah besar nak jadi ape...??"

Emmmhh, macam-macam jawapan yang keluar nye kaaannn....

Doctor..pramugari..accountant and etcss... ( jawapan berubah ikot keadaan..haha! )

But last raya, i got the chance to visit family kat indonesia...

I ask my anak sedare name AURA....lebih kurang 9 tahun umur dia...

"Aura dah besar nak jadi ape...??"

Jawapan yang dia bagi epic gilaa....tak pernah ak dengar budak kecik umur 9 tahun bagi jawapan gini....

She answered......

"Aura nak jadi manager auntie....aura nak jadi bos....."

Gituuuhhh...kecik-kecik dah ade cita-cita nak jadi bos.....hhahahaha......

THANKFUL....

Me,I Grew Up In The Family Where They Have Only 2 RULES...And The Rules Were :

 1) We Love To See You Screwed Up So That We Can Boooo You,If You Excell, We Love To Wait Untill You Screwed,After That We'll Booooooo You....

2) There's No 2nd Rule....

I Myself,Never Get Support From My Family....Yes,I'm Kind Of An Excell Student During My School Years( Straight A's For UPSR/PMR and 9A's Out Of 11 For SPM, Ex School Boarding Student) Which MAYBE Will Impress Others BUT (There's A BIG BUT Here) My Family Will Never Support Me For What I'm Doing NOW....They Love To Watch Me Screwed..!!! All Of Them(My Family) Are Engineers,Nerds,Teacher, And ETC (Senang Citer Makan Gaji Punya Orang Laaaa!) Me On The Other Hand, Involve In Business, Creative Industry Business...Plus,My Fiancee Is A Producer...We Are Doing It Together A Lot In Order To Make The Biz Successful...I Act,Learn To Write My Own Screenplay,Doing Dubb and Translating Scripts,Learn On How To Direct/Producing ETCs...But NONE of Those Get Any Support From My Family....NONE....They Love Talking Behind My Back And They Love To See Me Screwed As They Always Did....~


You Know,All Of Those Never Gets Me Down,But I'm Proud Of Myself That Even They Hardly Want To See Me Screw...I'm Getting Higher And Higher...I Saw The World,I Learned Across Many Cultures,I Flew Across Oceans,Played Many Characters, Made Many Friends,I See Beyond Of Everything That My Family Never See, I Think Wider And Also I Fell In Love....So What If I'm Screw Someday( Which I Will Not Let It Happen) Who Cares...

My Family Doesnt Know Any Of These Coz All Of Them Were Nerds Who Read Books All The Way, Or Punch In Every Morning And Punch Out At The End Of The Day For The Paychecks That Just Enough To Pay Their Debts...Every Month Quarell And Yelling At Each Others..Bz Boooing Others...

While I Think Differently....I Took Another Way Round... (Will Not Mention It)

Kalau Lah Bill Gates Tu Tak Kuat,Dengar Org Duk Ngutuk And Ngata Dia Sana Sini, Kalau Lah Mark Zuckerberg Tu Terasa Bila Org kata Dia Gila And Kalau Lah Wrights Brothers Berhenti Bermimpi Untuk Terbang Seperti Burung, Kalau Lah Thomas Alba Edison Putus Asa Setelah Gagal Beratus-Ratus Kali Untuk Menghidupkan Lampu.....All Of Them Will Never Got To Change The History,They Will Never Get Rich,None Of Us Will Never Get To Fly Or We Still Live In The Dark Untill Now Without Lights...

So Who Cares Mom,Dad,Siblings,Atok Nenek,Sedara-Mara Segala....I'll Remember That Someone Told Me..."Ble Kita Susah,Takde Sape Nak Amik Peduli,Ble Kta Senang,Sume Nak Ngaku Sedara,Ngaku Kawan Baik..Then Mulalah Nak Pinjam-Pinjam Duit.."...Heh, Thats Usually How Lifes Work...

There's A Story You Tell And There's A Story You Dont..But I Always Got A Great Stories...The Family May See That Everything That I'm Doing Is Wrong...But You Know,For Me..It Doesnt Matter,Because When I Look Back Behind My Past I Know Exactly What and Where I Was Heading And What Was Heading Towards Me...I Might Have A "Not So Good-Supporting Family" And All Of This Crappy Stuffs That Came From My Family...But I Thank God For Replace It With Such A Very Nice,Humble, Romantic, Bijak,Baik,Loving Fiancee Who Non Stop Loving And Support Me All The Way....I Just Cant Wait To Have Him As My Husband....

TIRED..~

Now I'm Sitting In Front Of My Notebook With, I Dont Know Maybe Full Of Regrets And Frustrations.....
I'm Not Sure For How It Goes,But I'm Losing Words To Describe What Happend..

I'm Tired For Being The All Good Girl/Lady Etc With Hope That Somebody Will Just Appreciate It...
But Thats Not How Life's Work...
You Do Good To People, People Will Just Hates You So Much...
You Give Dougnut To The Poor,They Will Throw You Some Stones Right Away...

I'm Just So Upset For The Bad Words That Had Been Thrown To Me By People Who I Justtt....


I Just Dont Know For What To Do...Unsure and Unsecured.......

Thanks For That....

I Guess,Maybe Its Just To Test My Patient Level In The Month Of Ramadhan.....If It Is, Then I'm Proud Of Myself For Not Throwing Any Bad Words Back To That People....

RESOLUSI RAMADHAN

Hmm...Rasa-rasanye macam baru jek sambut raya...Tetibe ni dah nak puasa balik...

Pejam celik,Pejam celik....cepat sangat masa bergerak,berlalu dan meninggalkan kita...

Lebih kurang 12 hari lagi seluruh umat islam akan menyambut Ramadhan...

Bulan yang sangat mulia...Pahala amalan kita akan digandakan...

Time-time camni,kalo kita tak cari peluang nak buat pahala....rugi wooo...!!!

So,i decided to make my own Ramadhan Resolution...

Here It Goes....

1) sesungguhnya,saya adelah org yang sgt keras ati,degil dan tak bape nak penyabar sangatlah...maka i should train to lembutkan ati dan kurangkan kedegilan...bertolak ansur dan sabar....asal rasa nak marah jek,TAHAN..!

2) yang ni saya suka buat..tapi selalu tak bgtawu pun....tapi just nak put on the Ramadhan Resuolution List jek...perlulah lebih banyakkan menderma...baju ke,duit ke,mengajar ke and etc..etc...pape yang boleh disedekahkan,sedekah kan je...even senyum tu sedekah ape...

3) Akan cuba penuhkan solat terawikh setiap malam...tak kesah laa kat masjid secara berjemaah mahupun berseorangan di rumah...

4) yang ni paling penting....jangan membazir...makan ape yg sepatutnye...jgn lebih2 pastu buang...plus,time ni aarr nak kurangkan berat badan...

5) solat tahajjud/baca al quran....i should amalkan ni...nak doa yang baik2 untuk semua...

Cukup laa 5 jek di list down kan...kang buat list berjela tak terbuat plak...

Tak sabar nak tunggu datangnya Ramadhan....Syukur lah sebab masih lagi hidup dan bakal diberikan peluang untuk bertemu kembali dengan Ramadhan Al Mubarak....

SWEET SEVENTEEN

SWEET SEVENTEEN....memang masa umur aku 17 tahun,terlalu byk sgt memory yang terlakar...

6 tahun yang lalu...
Menghadapi SPM...
Memory Kat Asrama Dengan Kawan-Kawan
DEBATE...!!! 1st Time Champion National Level....
Memory Kalah Debate Pun Ye Gak...
Memory Jadi Prefect...Jadi Dorm Leader...
1st Time Dapat Call Suh Pegi Photoshoot and Front Page For Teenager Magazine


OOOooiii....Macam-macam Laaa Memory Yg Sweet Sgt Masa Sweet Seventeen Tu...!!!

But There Was A Memory That Will Remain Forever....Masa Tu and Time Tu Jek Ak Ade Perasaan Tu...
Bila Ak Try Nak Recall Balik Perasaan and Semangat Itu,Dah Takde,Tak Dapat Balik Sama Macam 6 Tahun Yg Lepas...

Perasaan Dan Semangat Yang Berkobar-kobar Untuk Dapatkan Something Yang Ak Sendiri Tak Ter Pk Yang Ak Mampu Buat...

I Would Love To Say Thanks To KHAIRUL NAIM (SAS DEBATER), Dia Mungkin Tak Tahu Sebab Dia Lah Semangat Dan Harapan Ak Tak Pernah Putus Sampai Ak Dapat Ape Yg Ak Nak...Dia Lah Pemulanya...

During 2005...Final Debat Interschool...Dr Jauh Ak Tgk Naim Angkat And Julang Piala Tu,Berpusu-pusu Flash Light Penuh Kat Muka Dia Jek....Tetibe Mcm Ade Satu Suara Dtg Dari Hati Ak Kata...

   "Next Year Interschool Debate,Atas Stage Yg Sama....Ak Plak Akan Julang Piala Tu Mcm Mana Naim Julang..."

Since Then Setiap kali Sembahyang Ak Doa Supaya Menang...
Since Then Semangat Ak Nak Debate And Nak Improve Bukan Main Dasyat Lagi...

U can Ask My Classmates,Who Hate Me For Semangat Yg Sgt Beriye Bagai...
Ask My Teammates DAHLIA,KASH,ISMAH,MAE,AKI and Etcs....
Ask My Coaches..

Siap Recruit Junior,Paksa Dtg Trening...
Trening Dgn Coaches Everyday/Every Week
Cikgu Marah Tak Bagi Bilik Latihan,Ktorang Senyap2 Seludup Bilik Bahasa...
Buat Paper Cutting Ramai2 With Juniors...
Nyanyi Lagu Tema Interschool Tu As Penaik Semangat...
Mcm-Mcm Lagi Lahhh..!!

Sebelum Pegi Pertandingan Tu,Patut Mintak Restu Cikgu Nak Salam-salam Sume kaaann...
Sekali Ade Ke Patut Suara Puan Fauziah (Ye,ak still ingat nama dia) Dari Jauh Dah Menjerit...

   "Ape Bising-bising Nih,kamu Nih Belum Tentu Menang Pun"

Punya laahh Tak Support langsung Cikgu Ni Kaann....

But Yet,After The Hardships...Sekolah Berasrama Penuh Integrasi Gombak,Sekolah Yg Baru Berusia 3 Tahun (masa tu lah),Yg Tak Dikenali Potential,Team Under Dog,Takde Siapa Kenal Pun..We Manage To Get The Tittle Champion Of Interschool Debating Championship 2006 (National Level Okay..) Not Just Only Champion,Tp We Create History Of IDC Sekolah Pertama Yang Menang Semua Perlawanan (6 peringkat awal,octo final,quarter final,semi final and final)....Terketar Gak Laa Time Final Tu Sebab Nak Kena Debate Atas Stage,Depan Menteri,Depan Audience Yg Bape Ribu Ntah...Sape Yg Pernah Join IDC Tahu laa Kan Prestige and Standard IDC Mcm Mana Bagi Bebudak Sekolah Kan....

Bukan Aaarr Nak Bangga Bagai...Of Coz With Usaha dan Pertolongan Sume Pihak...Coaches (Abg Cipul,Abg Izuddin,Abg Habib),Cikgu Halim and Dgn Izin Allah Jgak...

But Then,Time Tu..Tahun Tu...6 Tahun Yang Lepas...Semangat Dan PerasaanYang Sebegitu Tinggi Itu,Ak dah Tak Dapat Rasa Lagi Dah...Tak Tahu Mana Hilang....Cuba Untuk Cari Dan Gali Balik,Tapi Tak Jumpa...Mana Pergi Semangat Itu...Mungkin Ade Dalam Diri Ak,Still Bersembunyi Menunggu Untuk Kembali Lagi....InsyaAllah....

INDUSTRI KREATIF KE INDUSTRI HIBURAN...???

It was 2.42 am on Sunday,June 17....
Tak tido lagi yek...
Game German kottt...
Gilaaa tak tengok....

But basicly,takde kena mengena nak cter pasal Euro ke ape....
It's just there's something i want to say it out loud...
Something about my involvement in Industri Kreatif...
Hahaha...
Aku lagi prefer sebut Industri Kreatif daripada Industri Hiburan...
Sebab bagi aku
Kalo disebut Industri Hiburan,
Maka banyaklah drama,telefilem,filem and etc penuh dgn lawak-lawak and cter2 "kureng"
sebab nak hiburan semata-mata (sebab kat malaysia nih,selagi takde lawak bodoh,tak hiburan aarr kaann..

Kalo disebut Industri Kreatif,
 Maka nye,drama,telefilem,filem kita perlu lah lebih kreatif,bernas,bagus....
Takde laa kena cop as karya yang "kureng"
Maka nye,perlulah sume orang yang terlibat dalam Industri Kreatif ni menjadi Lebih Kreatif....

Baru mukadimah okay,belum sampai kepada ape yang nak di citer kan...

Okay,here we go...

 Ade lah sorang member (member ke..?? heh~) nih berkata lebih kurang begini.....

"Alaaa Yana Tu...Dia Bukan Artis Pun,Sebab Dia Bukan Nye Famous Pun..."


Anyway,patut dan amatlah saya bersyukur sebab TAK famous....
Sebab menjadi FAMOUS itu adelah BALA yek...
Yelaa,sebab kalo FAMOUS, kita kena share hal-hal personal kita dengan org lain...
Kawen cerai,masalah rumahtangga,shopping kat mana,kita pakai handbag rm10 pun orang duk mengata...

I'm not going to defend myself atas statement itu,malah tak kecik hati pun...
I joined Industri Kreatif with my own goal and purposes...
Goal and purposes..??

Yeap,sebab nak ubah mentaliti orang ramai terhadap cter2 melayu...
Most of my frens ramai yek tak tgk cter melayu...
sebab diorang kata...

  " cter melayu cter bodoh,buang duit beli tket wayang tgk cter melayu,baik download free jek kat internet..cuba buat cter blaaa blaa blaaa blaaa...."

Bukan aku yang kata ek...diorang yang kata...aku cuma mengiya kan jek...

So with that,i would like to challenge myself,untuk ubah perception makhluk2 yang berfikiran camni...
How...?? RAHSIA laaahhh,mana boleh bagitawu....heh~

After that FAMOUS will come later....(kalo famous laa kan)

So,aku bukan join industri ni sebab nak memeriahkan dan meramaikan lagi orang-orang dalam industri yang disebut oleh ramai orang sebagai industri hiburan....Setakat nak jadi FAMOUS pastu MEMERIAHKAN dan MERAMAIKAN... sorry aarr beb,bagi sesetengah orang,Industri Kreatif adelah business,bukan setakat make up,pakai cantik2,pose depan kamera..ape ingat majlis khatan atau cukur jambul ke nak memeriahkan dan meramaikan... I've bigger mission compared to setakat nak pegang tittle ARTIS...

So to the one who keluarkan statment "Alaaa Yana Tu...Dia Bukan Artis Pun,Sebab Dia Bukan Nye Famous Pun..." what's your goal and purpose in your own  field...???